Ashamed, alone, damaged, perverted, twisted, abnormal, and did I mention alone? These are just a few of the negative emotions I had as a female who was sexually addicted. For 23 years I struggled in secret with masturbation; then masturbation and porn; and eventually masturbation, porn and anonymous sexual encounters. All of this while living a double life. On week nights I would teach Bible Studies, minister to new believers, and was even a Sunday School teacher. Was I a hypocrite? Some would say yes. Actually, I was just a believer that really loved Jesus, but was clueless about how to manage the addiction that I had become trapped in since I was 11 years old.